Eight months in my bedroom
In 2019 I was working in venture capital. It was a decent corporate life, but I was inspired by founders and I did not want to just fund things, I wanted to build them. So I quit to learn to code full time. I locked myself in my bedroom in KL and ground through tutorials, YouTube and blog posts for about 12 hours a day: Vue, React, Node, Express, Hasura, Supabase.
At first it was fun. Hit run on someone else's code and watch a project come to life. After a few months the harsh reality set in: despite completing hundreds of tutorials, I could not build anything of my own. Every time a course got hard, I switched to Python, then Ruby on Rails. Then digital marketing, crypto, UI/UX, product management. Tutorials were junk food: they felt good, but I was eating chips and getting zero protein.
After eight months I hit one of the lowest points of my life. No income, burning through savings, isolated, and deep in imposter syndrome. Some nights I stared at the ceiling wondering whether to crawl back to corporate life.



